# 2

*God is Good; Foreign Living & a Precious Gift*

Three years ago I would have never imagined myself living in Germany! Not many can say they lived in Europe, if it was not for the military! I am truly blessed! Three years ago I could have never imagined being married or having a baby! God is good and He’s given me such a precious gift that I could not be more humbly accepting of! I have been given a little piece of Heaven on Earth. I have my own little darling Angel!!

Adjusting to life in Germany took
almost a year for me to get used to. Not going to lie, I did not see how beautiful it truly was here! My eyes were hazed by how much I missed home, how much I missed my family and friends, and how much I just missed the American lifestyle. With my closed mind, I was so blindsided! I was so nervous to leave home. I was so depressed for so long and so, so sad to say goodbye for such a long period of time to all of my wonderful family and friends. I thought, “How can I live without them?” I could not allow myself to open up or have fun and enjoy the people around me or to enjoy the surrounding beauties of what Germany has to offer. I hated it all! I was in my own world. My outlook on life was not helping my home situation at all. What was happiness? Did that exist? Would I ever find it?

The day that my daughter was born changed everything. My whole outlook on life has opened up. I feel like a complete different person. I want to be more sociable. I have a lot more faith and I am so thankful that this tiny little Angel has done this to me. She was a God sent. The months of sickness, pain, and hospital stays were long and trying and a true testament to my patience. I was almost in disbelief that I had a tiny person growing inside me. I could not believe that I was going to be a mother, that I was going to be in charge of caring for another being, or that I would be forever changed. I was going to forever be a part of a lifelong selfless act of  l o v e . Her kicks and movements inside and my growing belly let me know I was in for it!

Labor is a long hard process. Being in a German hospital is a difficult experience. Labor with no medication is excruciating pain! Having two failed epidurals that in turn, to this day, messes your back up, is no fun game, on top of already having had years of back pain! Yet, God is good. God has given me such a wonderful, precious, most kind and loving little gift. This little girl loves me more than anything in the world! I could be having the worst day and I just look at her and she gives me the biggest smile! Although she doesn’t understand why there are tears streaming down my face at times, it’s because I still get emotional over her beauty. She has her father’s features, as well as his big heart. I adore her. I could not imagine my life any different than it is right now. I could live in this moment forever! I cannot wait to see her grow bigger and learn even more. I cannot wait for her father to be home by my side and to watch her grow with me. God is good.*

*my little love*